Yes....more random thoughts....

So, here's two totally random thoughts for you....

One night last week, a new friend came over and by the end of his visit, the conversation had turned to debt reduction. We talked about our goals to get out of debt and (whether real or not) there was a moment when the conversation could have gone down the road of why we are now so focused on getting out of debt or at least how we came to have so much debt. DH adores this new friend but I don't know him as well as DH and so he's not one of my closest, most trusted friends.

Anyway....the point of the story is that I didn't share with him all the dirty details of me using the credit card over the last year and seriously reducing our available credit on the card. I didn't feel like confessing to him and thankfully, DH was kind enough not to indulge that info. It's really embarrassing to me. I've shared the full story with only four girlfriends and they are all friends that I trust wouldn't judge me for being such a jerk. I find that my actions over the last year are completely humiliating and, I'd like to think, completely out of character. I'll talk to anyone who will listen about budgets and debt reduction but no one else about the full truth. Is that being deceitful or is that just using good judgement in who should know about this (one of my many) flaw?

My second random thought is this....last night I went shopping for Easter outfits and basket items for the kids. As I was walking out of the store, I discovered that I didn't feel like a martyr for not being able to buy everything I wanted. There was a complete lack of...."Poor me. I'm on such a tight budget. There's no way I can fill three Easter baskets on this budget. Blah...blah...blah." I hadn't been thinking that before, and I wasn't planning on thinking that. But I have felt that way when I've gone grocery shopping. So - when there was a complete lack of those thoughts, I was a bit surprised and, I'll admit, pleased with my progress. So - just because it's a challenge to be on such a tight budget, doesn't mean that it can't be done and that I can't have some fun doing it.